On top of that I somehow feel like I'm to blame for other people's problems whether it be a breakup, a near death, or a fight between friends. I've been finding my thoughts are oddly powerful and although my intentions are good, it only takes one negative thought for me to cause someone's life spiraling out of control. I know I'm getting paranoid and these things have nothing to do with me, but sometimes I feel like I'm a magnet of misfortune to whoever I come in contact with. Maybe it's the psychology class that's messing me up lol. However I know the more I have these thoughts of attracting misfortune the more it will come about. I've been having such a good year so far I don't want to let my mind trick me into this bad cycle. So let me tell you some good news!
January was an amazing month for me. I really made a lot of headway at achieving my goals and I actually felt genuinely happy! Although February wasn't as great, I had an amazing Valentine's Day weekend with my boyfriend. I joined him and his mom for the weekend in Pinawa and I went with him on beautiful nature walks by the river. There's nothing I love more than being in nature just the two of us hand in hand. I wish those times could last forever... Sometimes I wonder if he realizes how much those little things mean to me.
Anyways before this gets too long I'm going to share my goal for this month, I had such a good January that my goal is basically to get back where I was there and build on it. Here is a list of things I did in January:
- I drank lot's of water
- I took iron, B12 and D3 supplements regularly
- I took plenty of L Theanine
- I practiced gratitude
- I kept my daily planner updated
- I read my favorite magazines before bed
- I made a vision board
- I limited my gluten and sugar intake
- I meditated more often
- I did more housework and kept my room clean
I think that's a pretty good list of things. It certainly made a difference, and it will again this month. As I get back into a better routine I can continue to make more goals for myself and reach my full potential, whatever that is! I'm ready to get back on track! ;)
Painted Lady <3
I know we've talked about the psychology class and how it's affecting you, and I support whichever decision you make. Just know that there's no shame in dropping the course if you have to, especially when your mental and emotional well-being is at stake. Pride can go by the wayside when health is involved.
ReplyDeleteYou're not to blame for others' problems, but I think the reason you feel you are is that you're just such a naturally caring person. You want the best for these people and when things go sour, you feel like you could've done something differently. Just my take on it.
I'm glad you and Cameron had such a nice Massacre Day weekend... hopefully even more frequent peaceful nature moments are in the future for you two!
I'm confident that you can make March (and other months as the year progresses) as good as January was, and even better. I look forward to doing what I can to helping you along the way, whether it's by trying to keep you focused, offering a listening ear, or just chatting and providing company. You're a good person and an even greater friend.